That is the answer that is given in the Introduction to the Kolbrin, Sha’ul. I’m sorry if you didn’t like that or were not paying attention. But this is what is explained right from the beginning. Don’t show buyers remorse after you were told, and chose not to listen.
Your enthusiasm for the Kolbrin earlier on was infectious. If that enthusiasm is beginning to wane due to doubts about the legitimacy of the Kolbrin or Kailedy, that is something you will have to deal with on a personal level.
There has been a lot of research into the provenience of the Kolbrin (just talk to Manuel on that one), and there is a huge amount of evidence that it is what it seems to be, but ultimately you will have to make the decision whether or not the events that took place are real or not. That is a personal decision; just like whether or not you feel people like Jesus or Jonah even existed, or whether or not talking snakes tempted Eve to eat a forbidden fruit
(Many people think the ancients simply made up most of the ancient religions, and in the Jewish case simply added a mathematical code to the text when it was eventually written down. So, anywhere you look, you will have to decide whether a thing is a fake or forgery… perhaps the entire Jewish tradition was originally built on myths and lies and followed by an Islamic and Christian lie. This is what many people think. And as these questions are raised, more and more people everywhere think these ancient traditions are pure bunk, as the supposed “experts” lose more of their authority, and are able to answer less and less questions. The “authorities” everywhere are falling on their faces, and people once again are learning to find the Truth of things in their hearts, thank God!)
That is a choice you will have to make, and an answer you will have to come to inside. Just like with everything else in life, YOU have to decide what is real or not, what is of value or not for yourself.
The fact that the Kolbrin’s original papers and plates have not been released is a plus, not a minus, from my view. If they were out there for the public, the public would make another religion out of the thing for people to blindly follow, because “experts” told them how ancient and real it all was. In this way, only lovers of Spiritual Truth approach it and stay with it, without making it a religion.
It is your choice, Sha’ul, but as you get deeper, the adults don’t stand by to tell you what’s real anymore. Eventually, that responsibility falls on you. Here, you will have brothers and sisters to lend you a hand or offer advice, but the only real parents left are in our hearts and the Heavens. If you still require human parents, the Kolbrin and Kailedy may not yet be right for you…